All my previous research helped build a great foundation for the technical aspects behind my sci-fi novel. However, the tech stuff is simple background; much of it will not even show up directly in the book. Now I’m at the point where the characters are front and center and creating them from scratch is damn difficult.
This is nothing new. Write anything of significant length and importance, and you’ll find yourself in the middle of chaos, wondering if you are losing track of all those threads holding shit together. Since my novel spans about 120 years with overlapping characters and substantial themes that run the entire time period, it’s churning into gobblely-gook inside my head.
I take notes – scribbled in my notebook here and there – but frankly the amount of data I want to keep track of is a bit overwhelming right now. I’m juggling about a dozen scenes in my head that are not yet written, plus I’m toying with reconstructing some of the format (like breaking up a chapter into separate pieces or introducing each chapter with a character quote). I keep jotting all this stuff down. I slowly work on existing chapters. It’s almost like I’m afraid to really handle this mess because I’m not sure where I’ll end up.
On top of all that I begin my summer travels in about 3 weeks. Plenty of time to write more, but not enough time. I’m really scared to hit a rhythm only to have to take a break and lose it all. I suppose that’s the main issue right now: One slip and I feel the entire project becomes a bloody mess.
Ah, the old fear. Welcome back. I’d say I missed you, but we both know you’ve never really left once I started writing again.
Nothing to do but keep plugging away. More research. More revision. And I’ll be starting the hard chapter next week. Better to face it than keep procrastinating.